Every Cloud has a Silver Lining

 One of my favorite things to do as a child was to lay down on the grass and look up at the sky. I would see lots and lots of clouds slowly passing by and I would form outlines with my fingers of different shapes in the clouds. I remember I once saw a mermaid, a horse, and a whale. I had a great imagination. I grew older and throughout the busyness of life, I forgot about taking those moments to simply lay down and watch the clouds.

When I was a teenager, I had just finished my first dance competition and my mom and I were in the car. I remember sitting back in my chair, my mom driving at the wheel, I looked out of my window and gazed up at the sky. A smile formed on the corners of my mouth and one of my favorite things that I liked to do as a kid returned, creating those images of different objects; but this time I saw an angel.  Now was it an angel or was it just my imagination forming this figure in my mind? It could have been either one.  In my mind a beautiful beautiful angel stretching its arms out to the right side in the sky. After I had seen this sight, I had this amazing surge of energy after I had just performed an intense routine. And yes, the angel did have a silver lining.

As I look back at the whole 'shabam' as I like to call it, of my life, I wonder what would have happened if I had looked for the 'silver lining.' Would I have lost my best friend?  Would I have thought about ending my life? Would the hours of crying and tears ceased? Would I have rejected myself ? Would I have the boy that just wanted to be my boyfriend?  Would I have prevented this..or that? Would I .... Would I.. Would I ?

A ' Silver Lining' is described as, ' A hopeful or comforting prospect in the midst of difficulty.' (This is from answers.com) The word that stands out to me here is 'hope.' My hope was lost throughout the time of difficulty, but I have found it and I'm not letting go.

This blog is about several things: It is about me finding my silver lining(s) throughout life, faith, the 60 Day Bikram Challenge (I will begin in about 2 hours), my struggles with acne, weight, depression, anxiety, and much much more.