I quit... I only completed 7 days out of the 60 days of yoga. And how I feel like a failure. I was getting too tired every day and was sleeping over 12 hours at a given time. I don't think this was healthy. I think I was trying to do too much too fast...
So I have a new challenge that I need some more support. I pick my face. I do it..because it feels good, it relieves stress, it takes me to another place that is not reality. I continue to eat and drink poorly because I know that it will form pimples that I can pop and I love to just sit in front of the mirror at an hour at a time and just pick at every single little pore on my face. The worst idea I had was to get an extractor. I thought this would be the more ' gentle and easier' way to get the dirty pores out. Well it just created more scars because I was pressing too hard and wouldn't get the entire pus out. It is a great feeling once I extract something that didn't belong there...but the consequences are horrific scars on my face. I am seeing a pyschologist, psychiatrist, and a dermatologist to try and control this problem. Unfortunately, there are not any pills to make you stop picking. I need help. I have an idea of why I pick... and I need to stop.
So, I am posting what my horrific face looks like now..so that I can look back and hopefully see some change for the good.
